More misery

When I woke up this morning on Fray Island, Ysabelle had already gone – which I was expecting.  I didn’t see her until later in the night, when the entirety of the Guard met to assault Theramore Island.  Ysabelle and I arrived in the marsh together, but kept our distance from each other.  I figured it wouldn’t really be appropriate to be pawing her while listening to Alkaiser give orders on where and how to attack – as much as I might like to have been at the time.  

We were each broken into smaller groups prior to invading the island fortress.  I was placed with Miralan, Achates, and Fandaleen.  At the time I thought maybe Alkaiser intentionally placed me in a different group from Ysabelle, but I convinced myself I was just being paranoid.  After what happened later that evening, though, I’m not so sure.

The assault went well for the most part.  We went through the town without much resistance, it took Jaina Proudmoore herself to turn us back.  Even though we were bested by her, we still considered the assault a success.

Afterwards, we each made our back to Silvermoon.  Jaina had us pretty well scattered, so we all trickled into the city one by one.  I met Fandaleen and a few others at the usual gathering place, but left shortly after to change into some more comfortable clothes.  This plate armor is going to take some getting used to.  As I was out walking around I came upon Chrysalis and Nefarirr sitting by the fountain.  Nefarirr was pleasant enough, but Chrysalis saw me and lunged, grabbing hold of me and pulling my face to hers – at first I thought she was going to kiss me, but no such luck.  She was furious, she told me how Alkaiser found out about what Ysabelle and I had done, and that he had ended things with her.  She told me that now Ysabelle was a wreck, that she was begging and pleading him to take her back. 

Then Chrysalis bit me on the neck.  She was blaming me for Ysabelle being so upset, and I just didn’t want to hear it.  I summoned my horse and got away from her as fast as I could.  She tried contacting me through my brand, but I ignored her. 

Just last night Ysabelle told me that she loved me.  She told me that she wanted to be free to be with me.  Why she would lie about that I don’t know, but lie is what she did.  She wanted to be free from him, and she got her wish.  Now she’s upset over this?  Did she ever even want to be with me?  Did she think she could keep me on the side forever?  She knows what it’s like to have to compete for someone’s affection, I know that she won’t tolerate being someone’s second choice.  But she expects me to endure what she cannot?  I don’t know what the truth is anymore, and I don’t even know if she’s capable of telling me the truth. 

This has just been too much.  I’ve been going back and forth with her for too long.  I’m sick of it, and I’m finished.  She deserves the misery that she feels.