Dancing lessons

I spent most of today just moping around Silvermoon.  Chrysalis reached me through my brand and said that we needed to talk, so I agreed to meet her in the Exchange.

We found a bench to sit on, and she apologized for lashing out at me the night before.  I wasn’t really mad at her – just mad at the situation.  Chrysalis has a number of problems of her own, I learned, problems that I either dismissed before or just didn’t notice because I was too wrapped up in my own head. 

She felt used, and I got the impression that she felt a little bit betrayed.  What she thought was a meaningful relationship turned out to be nothing more than someone else’s amusement.  I didn’t tell her how obvious that appeared to me from the very beginning. 

After I convinced her that things were over over between Ysabelle and I (and it took a lot of convincing) she seemed to relax a bit.  I feel like Ysabelle and all the drama surrounding her was like this giant Elekk in the room whenever Chrysalis and I were together.  It felt good to be to just push that aside and relax and have fun with her.  We hadn’t really been able to laugh and relax like that since those first days we met.

We both joked about our miserable and pathetic romances, and she told me that I’m the only man she has in her life now. 

We were alone in the Exchange for a while, but in any busy place like that you’re bound to bump into someone you know sooner or later.  Velysen, Lisette, Erunen, and Zaliron all joined us in time. 

Someone mentioned how it seems we had ourselves a small party, and someone else remarked that we would have a party, except that there’s no dancing.  I think it was Lisette who suggested that Chrysalis and I dance, but I flat out refused – Chrysalis seemed disappointed. 

Lisette and Erunen took it upon themselves to set the example, and began to dance.  They really were something to behold – and after seeing what their idea of dancing was I was even happier I hadn’t volunteered.  I would have stepped on Chrysalis’ toes and quite possibly knocked her over if I had attempted anything similar to what those two were able to do.  They were getting quite hot and heavy, too, and I think I saw each person watching them blush just a little bit. 

Chrysalis seemed especially flushed and got up and left suddenly, walking to the nearby inn.  Erunen glanced at me from his embrace with Lisette and spoke to me through my brand, telling me to go after her.  When did I become the boyfriend who’s job it is run after the girl who stalks away?  I was curious to see what had upset her, though, so I followed her to the inn and found her seated upstairs on one of the beds.

She told me that the weight of everything was just getting to her.  I think maybe watching the couple dancing got her thinking about her own (failed?) relationship.  I was still exhausted from last night, myself, and sat down on the bed next to her.  I didn’t know quite what to say, so I just put my arm around her.  She seemd to calm down and leaned against me, falling asleep. 

After everything that’s happened over the past twenty four hours this was not a situation I would have expected myself to be in – but it’s nice to have something to hold on to.   

More misery

When I woke up this morning on Fray Island, Ysabelle had already gone – which I was expecting.  I didn’t see her until later in the night, when the entirety of the Guard met to assault Theramore Island.  Ysabelle and I arrived in the marsh together, but kept our distance from each other.  I figured it wouldn’t really be appropriate to be pawing her while listening to Alkaiser give orders on where and how to attack – as much as I might like to have been at the time.  

We were each broken into smaller groups prior to invading the island fortress.  I was placed with Miralan, Achates, and Fandaleen.  At the time I thought maybe Alkaiser intentionally placed me in a different group from Ysabelle, but I convinced myself I was just being paranoid.  After what happened later that evening, though, I’m not so sure.

The assault went well for the most part.  We went through the town without much resistance, it took Jaina Proudmoore herself to turn us back.  Even though we were bested by her, we still considered the assault a success.

Afterwards, we each made our back to Silvermoon.  Jaina had us pretty well scattered, so we all trickled into the city one by one.  I met Fandaleen and a few others at the usual gathering place, but left shortly after to change into some more comfortable clothes.  This plate armor is going to take some getting used to.  As I was out walking around I came upon Chrysalis and Nefarirr sitting by the fountain.  Nefarirr was pleasant enough, but Chrysalis saw me and lunged, grabbing hold of me and pulling my face to hers – at first I thought she was going to kiss me, but no such luck.  She was furious, she told me how Alkaiser found out about what Ysabelle and I had done, and that he had ended things with her.  She told me that now Ysabelle was a wreck, that she was begging and pleading him to take her back. 

Then Chrysalis bit me on the neck.  She was blaming me for Ysabelle being so upset, and I just didn’t want to hear it.  I summoned my horse and got away from her as fast as I could.  She tried contacting me through my brand, but I ignored her. 

Just last night Ysabelle told me that she loved me.  She told me that she wanted to be free to be with me.  Why she would lie about that I don’t know, but lie is what she did.  She wanted to be free from him, and she got her wish.  Now she’s upset over this?  Did she ever even want to be with me?  Did she think she could keep me on the side forever?  She knows what it’s like to have to compete for someone’s affection, I know that she won’t tolerate being someone’s second choice.  But she expects me to endure what she cannot?  I don’t know what the truth is anymore, and I don’t even know if she’s capable of telling me the truth. 

This has just been too much.  I’ve been going back and forth with her for too long.  I’m sick of it, and I’m finished.  She deserves the misery that she feels. 

Changing colors

My break ended up being a short one.  I was staying in Gadgetzan, picking up whatever work I could from the goblins in the desert.  Someone up there has a bizarre sense of humor, though, because just as I was beginning to enjoy the freedom of working on my own I ran into Ysabelle.  We worked together for a time, but it wasn’t long before she was called back to Silvermoon. 

Then, Chrysalis started speaking to me through my brand and I pretty much gave up on having some quiet time.  The company was actually very much appreciated.  Apparently I missed quite a bit by not going to the last meeting of the Silverguard.  Chrysalis told me how Alkaiser and the Bloodguard learned that Prince Kael’thas isn’t looking out for us they way we had all thought.  Seems he’s now allied himself with the Legion. 

Maybe it’s just that the news hasn’t sunk in yet, but I can’t admit to feeling too affected by this.  Maybe it’s because I was never really up on what was going on in the Outlands, or maybe I was just too absorbed in everything going on in my own life to concern myself with the bigger picture.  Maybe I still am. 

Either way, the purpose of the Silverguard has changed.  Chrysalis is excited by this, as she can now openly tell people that she follows the Scryers without fear of people judging her.  Despite the bad news she seemed optimistic, and I let her know that I would follow her in any decision she makes.  I know I can trust her. 

Taking a break, again

Last night was spent tearing through Razorfen Downs with Achates, Fandaleen, Jadael, and Ysabelle.  The place didn’t give us a whole lot of trouble, it was made easier by the way the undead creatures were so susceptible to my light-based attacks.  Achates found a nice new cloak, and the lich down there was holding a plate helm that I quickly relieved him of.  

Afterwards I went to see my trainer and learned a wealth of new skills, the most exciting of which being the ability to summon a warhorse.  No more blisters from running halfway across the world in mail boots!  I also learned to carry heavier armor, which is even more uncomfortable, of course – but I’m used to that.

Later on I tried to contact Ysabelle to see if she’d like to get together (preferebly in a place not crawling with walking quillboar corpses), but she was busy with Alkaiser.  So, I thought I might try to meet up with Chrysalis - it had been a while since we’d seen each other – but she was busy with Alkaiser, too.  Used to be I could count on at least one of them, but I suppose I ought to get used to this. 

I’ve decided I’m going to take a bit of a break from this mess, go someplace where I can rest and be alone for a while.  Someplace far away from Silvermoon, preferably.  Tonight there’s supposedly some important meeting of the Silverguard, but I’m sure they’ll manage just fine without me.

Maybe I’ll have some sort of epiphany while I’m away and come back with a fresh perspective on things.  At the very least, I hope I can sleep.

Back to business

Much has happened since I last wrote.  With the Silverguard I took part in a raid on Darkshore, Chrysalis has followed me in joining the guild, and I ventured into the fallen Gnomish city with Ysabelle, Achates, and Fandaleen. 

Chrysalis has gotten much stronger, and I feel like she’ll soon be better with a sword than I am at the rate she’s going. 

Fandaleen is a lot of fun, I’d like to get to know her a bit better. 

It’d be easy to think Achates to be in over his head in just about any situation, the way he carries himself, but I know we would not have made it out of Gnomeregan without his help. 

Ysabelle has opened up quite a bit since we first met.  I haven’t spent as much time with her as I might have liked, she’s been seeing someone – which I didn’t know until know until recently.  Which is fine, by the way, I just don’t know why she didn’t mention to him to me at all, I sort of figured this out for myself.  Still, I wonder if he knows where Ysabelle’s been spending her nights. 

It doesn’t matter, though, I’ve just focused all my attention on getting my work done.  I can’t really say that I’m happy, but at least I’ll be doing some good.  I’ve been having trouble sleeping, too.  Seems the only way I can sleep through the night is if I stay up half of it chopping centaur (or anything really) to bits until I’m too exhausted to do anything but pass out.

The Silverlord has commented on the rapid progress of my training – the result of all these late nights - but I know I’ve snapped at people I probably shouldn’t have in my exhaustion.  The last time we saw each other, Ysabelle also said something about me being more reckless than normal.  Maybe she’s right, I don’t know.  Either way, I’m not hers to look after.  That much is clear. 

Partners

I realized that I still had some work to finish up in the Ghostlands, so first thing this morning I pulled on my new guild tabard, strapped my ranseur to my back, and headed out. 

My room here is pretty barren, I realized.  It’s been a while since I’ve had a place to put my stuff, so naturally I haven’t really been collecting a lot.  Maybe I should at least keep around a change of clothes.  I am, after all, I’m supposed to be respectable now.  I’ll need to find a tailor first, though.

Anyway, I made it to the Ghostlands and spent a good amount of time milling around Tranquillien chatting with the provisions vendor (I guess I wasn’t really all that eager to work, after all).  

It was there that I met another Bloodknight, a girl named Chrysalis.  She was obviously impressed by my enormous pokeystick (as Ysabelle called it) and I’m pretty sure I saw her eyeing my tabard, too.  I’m sure she recognized the crest of the Silverguard on it.  Anyway, being the nice guy that I am, I offered to help her out with what she was working on.  It didn’t hurt that she was kinda cute, too.

The two of us tore through the catacombs and, later on, Deatholme.  Chrysalis seemed a little too sweet to be chopping the limbs off of trolls as well as she was, but she was good company.  We agreed that we made a good team and that we should work together more often.  She mentioned the loneliness that Bloodknights feel, which is something that I hadn’t really thought about.  I mean – yes, there are people that avoid us like the plague, but I guess because I’ve been working alone for so long now it hadn’t really bothered me.

Having a partner was a nice change.